“What Happened To You?”
It took over a decade to learn what was “wrong” with me. Each shrink I went to had their own pet diagnoses that they dished out, OCD, Bipolar disorder 2, depression with psychotic features, generalized anxiety disorder. It was actually a dentist who put me on the path to learning what was wrong with me. I clench and grind my teeth so hard both sleeping and while I’m awake that several of my teeth were broken and I had worn the enamel off my teeth to the point you can see right through the tips of them. After his assistant had done a comprehensive examination and he looked at the results he came in and the first thing he asked me was, “What happened to you?”. I didn’t know what he meant so he explained that people with my particular kind of bruxism generally had unresolved trauma. I couldn’t tell him exactly what all had happened to me, I’ve never told anyone except my wife. It’s not something I would talk about. That may be why all those shrinks kept giving me wrong diagnoses, I couldn’t tell them what was really going on with me. The dentist told me that their custom mouth/teeth guards usually had a life of three years but my bruxism is so severe that he expected it to last maybe half that long.
I still haven’t disclosed everything that happened to any doctor or shrink but I’ve disclosed enough that they know what’s going on with me. I’ll go into more detail about what happened in the blog posts and videos I post here, as well as the extremely harmful effects of the drugs all those shrinks put me on because of their many misdiagnoses.