A lot of spiritual seekers and people who have been members of religious organizations their whole lives know the crushing weight of spiritual legalism—the exhausting belief that we have to constantly strive, purify, and prove ourselves to be good enough for God, the universe, or our own goals for...

Note: This is, for me at least, the most important post I have made to date on this blog. More important even than successfully getting off benzos. It is also the most raw, as in really putting my deepest and personal thoughts out there to the whole world. That’s...

What a wild, sad, and terrifying month. I know it sounds cliche, but never take your health for granted. I just learned that lesson in a terrifying way. Two ways actually. The first was with my own health and the second was my father in law. Regarding my health,...

I just wanted to say that while I made the statement in this video that nobody gets off benzos without problems, I acknowledge that I was wrong. Just since I made the video there have been people saying that they got off them without any problems whatsoever. While this...

It’s only been two weeks since I jumped off clonazepam. I’m hoping the full body muscle tension that causes muscle fatigue and weakness goes away soon. I’m getting concerned because I actually got out of breath just carrying a bag of groceries from the grocery store to the vehicle....

Getting off clonazepam has had effects I could never have imagined. I had no idea how much the drug altered almost everything. Things like my sense of smell, hearing, memory, even my personality. Now that I’m off of the drug I’ve noticed my sense of smell has returned, I...

Today has been a really good day! I got the best sleep I’ve had since before the beginning of my taper off benzos. I’ve felt really good, the sky was beautiful, and I spent the day with my family. What more could I ask for? Good sleep is the...

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Since I got about 6 and a half, maybe even 7, hours of sleep last night I’m feeling better today. That is a lot of sleep compared to what I have been getting. I’ve noticed a cycle recently, the withdrawal induced insomnia is so bad that I will go...